So here is the moment. The moment others have been looking for most of this past area. The small thing that went from the pond to the lake to the sea to now in the vast ocean. It's pretty terrifying if you ask me. Even though I don't think I ready I have to be, because there no other this door closes with my will involved.
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guess what has got me the most nervous is the fact that I'm doing this, no one else is just me. My guide watches over me and I know he is with me but your not waiting on the other side like I hoped.

I know if I put my best effort and beyond forth then I know I can make it.

Can I please have another go around

Can you forgive and let's do this together.

Time to become what I want to be and fight for the three things That I have set for myself

A fire fight in my head.